Alone

Is this my faith??

Sometimes, i feel that it's unfair for me.

I have a dream and my dream is just simple. No, i don't dream about a fancy car or a palace.

My dream is simple that i can manage my own family. In the same roof, same house, same city, same island.

But, it's just a fairytail for me.

I can only cry to reach that dream.

While the others can have it without strugling.

When i go to sleep, I can only imagine my husband is laying next to me.

When i go shopping, i can only imagine that we're shopping together.

When i need to see the doctor, i can only look at another people with their partners and i sit by myself, alone, waiting the doctor to come.

I have to do the radiology test all alone, wait for the result alone, and go home alone in the night along with the pain inside my womb.

What's the point of your marriage if you have to do all these things alone??